As I sat in church a few weeks ago, a scripture I love but don’t think of very often popped into my head.
Mosiah 2: 20-24:
I say unto you, my brethren, that if you should render all the thanks and praise which your whole soul has power to possess, to that God who has created you, and has kept and preserved you, and has caused that ye should rejoice, and has granted that ye should live in peace one with another
21 I say unto you that if ye should serve him who has created you from the beginning, and is preserving you from day to day, by lending you breath, that ye may live and move and do according to your own will, and even supporting you from one moment to another—I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole souls yet ye would be unprofitable servants.
22 And behold, all that he requires of you is to keep his commandments; and he has promised you that if ye would keep his commandments ye should prosper in the land; and he never doth vary from that which he hath said; therefore, if ye do keep his commandments he doth bless you and prosper you.
23 And now, in the first place, he hath created you, and granted unto you your lives, for which ye are indebted unto him.
24 And secondly, he doth require that ye should do as he hath commanded you; for which if ye do, he doth immediately bless you; and therefore he hath paid you. And ye are still indebted unto him, and are, and will be, forever and ever; therefore, of what have ye to boast?
I kind of love it when that happens. I like to think it’s Heavenly Father giving me something to ponder on a little more. And, because I’m pretty weird, I started writing a talk in my head based on it.
It would start, “Why are we hear today? Why did we bother getting out of bed, getting dressed in our nice clothes, wrestling our kids ourt of their beds (because the only ever-loving day mine will sleep late is Sunday morning), cram food into our mouths, and get ourselves here to listen to some reasonably boring speaker? Why did we put time and effort into preparing a lesson or making sure there was someone to teach a lesson, or check in with the people over whom we have stewardship? Why?”
That scripture is why.
I was blessed at a very young age to have very humbling and learning experiences with the Atonement in two different ways. I was blessed with the miracle of forgiveness, and the miracle of having my burden lifted.
Because of both of those experiences, I have an undeniable, but miniscule, understanding of what my Savior truly experienced in the Garden of Gethsemane.
I owe Him everything I am. I am truly an unprofitable servant. I can never, ever repay Him. Ever.
And so, I serve. I work. I coax my children out of their beds. I search for missing church socks Saturday night. I have family prayers and scriptures and Family Home Evening. I read personally, I pray. I bear my testimony. I attend the temple.
I try to do it all. For Him.